LöVE & LöVE

As a teenager, I remember being confuse. It was quite difficult to differentiate like, love, infatuation and so forth. Whenever a guy courts , I'd give him a chance out of no deep reason. It was just all for the heck of getting involve. Mostly, the good looking guys are on my list.

Until I was 19 years old. I met him on his birthday. I was the gatecrasher. When I saw his physical wholeness under the light, I went home hanging by the thought of him. Not a year had pass when he finally noticed me and started the courtship.

It was a genuine love. I knew it was because it never faded. Fate separated us but physics brought us together again and magic rekindled our feelings for each other.

Until now that he's still in my arms...whenever a conflict rises, there's always a way of mending it rather than ending it. Because simply, love is bigger than any of it all. ♥

Legality versus Reality

While legality provides security, reality comes along and simply bites.

Hearing another story of betrayal, misled, cheated on, smashed brings me back to when I was the one who sits in it. My shoulder started to fall, that familiar lump in my throat came out while listening to a friend. I wanted to take half of the burden but it's just so impossible. I could barely open my mouth and displayed a lot of awkward gestures. (sigh)

Marriage is a holy sacrament. It's a promise that should never be broken. It's a vow of loving the person for as long as you live.But how do you know it's a love bound to last forever?

So when betrayal knocks, are you able to forgive right away to keep your family intact? Would you care more on what people will have to say or what yourself can bear?

My own answer would be,to live at peace..away from the person who betrayed me.

Individuality

Long week is over. From my Birthday bash to Lemra's day and to our Career Awareness Week.Whew!!! It was one hell of weeks...not to mention how Tacloban had been washout by Yolanda typhoon.Definitely devastating and I could never stomach watching those victims in TV. It gave me a reason to empty my old closet though. 

Anyways, what really bothered me is how someone can have the ability to "unconsciously" offend you for whatever "bitterness" reason. Being a normal human being, my initial reaction was to offend her back. It gave me pleasure when I saw a line of dissapointment on her face when I did my little stint. 

But I realize how tiny our world is and entertaining this bad thought will surely lead to something damaging. Honestly, this situation is never new to me and I am more afraid of myself than the other person for I know what I can do when I reach my boiling point. Lord Help Me...help her...help us.Amen.

The Art of Sacrifice

Sacrifice is an art. An emotional art. Does it even ring a bell to you? Oh well...it's how I justify what I feel right now. That moment when you are in a situation that you really want something badly but you can't have it because it's not for you so you have to just merely sacrifice. Otherwise, it will spark a conflict. What is so conflicting is that, you are important to the person yet you cannot be the priority because you just cannot be the most important one. It is because that's the way it is and the way it should be. 

*&$^%*@)#&#*%*%*%*%(@(#&%&(@)!_#(%&%(^)%)_!

There...the characters running inside my head. 

In times like this, what I do is I just pause for a second and whisper a prayer that God Almighty will take me back to my sanity. After all, my employer is so unbelievably generous that what I got for an advance bonus is equal to everyone who's been with the company for a year or more. That really caught me in awe. I am so staying in this organization for as long as I live. 

(happy thoughts. happy thoughts. happy thoughts) 

♥

Long & Winding Road

SemBreak is over. It's too soon but it was worth it. We went home to Bukidnon for the All Souls Day. There, I had a chance to see my friend from my freshman year in BSU. It so happened that she lives one block away from my Uncle's house. It's so amazing how our friendship is still flourishing after so many years. To think, we were only together for barely one year. She got me VS lotion and cologne. I so thank God for the advent of FB. It really connects people.

Few days from now I'm gonna be 31. Gosh. One more notch and I'm out from the calendar. Life is really like a lightning. If you blink you'll miss it. The one thing I came to realize is that, we really mature in the process. Like I am really starting to draw some big dreams now. Finish my Masters, get a Doctors degree, put up a testing center, buy properties, then a car. It's what I've always wanted...a car. Well, it was a house and a car but since Lemra is taking me where he's going so I'm just gonna worry about getting a car.  ;)

Sigh. It's been a long and winding road. All I know is I will become really old someday but I never want to be poor.  (wink)