The Love Month

When February takes over we thought of Valentines Day. However it started by St.Valentine, the celebration became phenomenal that even Japan which never recognize a Saint have adapted the hearts day. For most of the women, regardless of age, perceive this time of the year to be so romantic or at least a chance of some romance. There are of course, hopefuls too that even if they've never been in an intimate relationship, the probability of starting one is high.

Anyhow, it's going to another life's dimension in my case. I started this month by retaking the two minor subjects I had a hard time passing during my first take in comprehensive exam. I did some readings and solving practices yeah...but to my astonishment, the questions designed by my professors are bigger than my dreams and ambitions. I must have forgotten my cognitive capacity for awhile. I got so carried away of my friends and loved ones encouragement.

So I found my brain numb and dysfunctional after the four hours and a half analysis of the white paper and that blue book. But despite of that agony, I still managed to thank God for sending me home safely...then I started to sob before falling asleep. My disappointment was beyond all that I could take.

It's been two days already and I could still feel the sting. I can only hope for a miracle. If not, then I should consider another options. (⊙o⊙)

Serenity in the Scenery

Houses. Ricefields. Trees. Bridges. Cars. People.
These are the usual apple of my eyes everytime I travel. Sometimes I draw a story out of these things in my head. Specially on houses. I'd pick a design and start to imagine life with the kids and Lemra in there.
They say that what you think will become so I always like to replay it until I will be blessed with resources. Though I only have one sibling and our parents' house would be enough for us, I still believe in the fulfillment of building something that I can call mine.
Since I left my old life and moved on with my new love,

I travel in the bus with peace of mind. I remember how I thought about violent things against "bugged-brain" and it never do any good. In fact I really ended up showing my super aggressive side in front of that family. But now? as if I am in a baby's cradle. I look at the surroundings as a representation of hope, joy and faith. ;)