This is 30

Maturity is not limited to physical appearance.Emotional and Psychological  stability evolves as well. I remember being a career woman for the first time, it was like working to pay my cosmetics and my desired colored mobile phone. Personal wants had always been my motivation to work and earn.

Things change when I had to embrace a serious responsibility. I started to prioritize stuff to even deprive myself. It must have been an extreme deprivation for I remember becoming defensive, feisty and projection was my mechanism to cope. I had several failures; marriage, graduate studies, career, motherhood etc. Oftentimes, I would walk out from a difficult situation. I face them for a little while and then I just suddenly cross the bridge.

I guess it's about to change now.Looking back, my 20s was a mess. Somehow I have developed this sense of determination. I've never felt this urge to push myself into losing 20lbs. before the year ends and I've never been this focus to my long term goal which is to acquire tenureship with my present employment.

This is 30 I'd say. It's not about pleasure anymore. It's about how you end up when you get older. From now on, I wouldn't mind being 30 for the rest of my life. :)