Verbalized Perceptions

The photo above was taken 9 years ago when I got my first symbian phone. It was when I couldn't get enough of "Selfies". Somehow it became my most favorite. The photo simply represented the core of my being: A THINKER. Rule of the thumb is, your head is place above your shoulder so it is suppose to rule us when making decisions. It just dawned in me, I will be 32 by November. I was only 23 when I hopped into marriage and embraced the biggest responsibility of them all. I was the breadwinner. I worked 12 hours a day, 6 days in a week. Sure I earned more than what is needed but it was never enough surprisingly. One responsibility came with another and when I noticed I was only rowing the boat alone I started feeling helpless...eventually I got tired. My ex husband left me for another woman and I went on with my life.
Though we share custody to our children, I could still feel the burden of responsibility is more on me. Is this because I'm the one who is more futuristic? or its just that the father of my kids never change?

It never stop there though. I ran into my former boyfriend when I was in College who had an existing rift with his father. We both declared the love for each other that never decayed so we decided to be together since he is still single and I just got single. The first few months living with his old folks were very smooth. There was an awkward feeling but it was pretty manageable. He and his pup run their business together for the longest time. Until one morning, that rooted conflict between his father was ignited. We decided to move out.

Now, he is of no career and no specific source of income. It's an added responsibility again. Not to mention he's ongoing unresolved issues between his sisters. They called me up and asked a favor that I take care of their brother. That simply means, he is fully entrusted to me.

Now what...? Perhaps, much is given to me since much is expected. The very reason why I'm awake this early to start making ends meet. Whatever. Life is just full of surprises and I'm glad to be in this bubbling community. :D